Terrible feeling! I received a message from cousin that she will be putting rocky to sleep today and i took half day leave to witness the process of rocky being put to sleep. Rocky was an abandoned dog and we actually adopted him back home and this was when we started to develope our feelings. When we brought rocky back home and we clearly knew he was an old dog, he might not live long, he had a tumour in his front leg. Despite that, he seems to have fate with us and thus, after much consideration, we decided to keep rocky with us without knowing this background and history.
Rocky was a very obedient dog and nice campanion dog to have, without and temperant. He was a shetland sheep dog and look very intelligent and adorable. Not long ago, cousin discovered that rocky was bleeding and he was then taken to a vet and was diagnosed with testicle cancer. We could have save rocky but the cost was really a major concern to us and seeing rocky was suffering, cousin's decision was to put him to sleep. The decision came only after much considerations, it was a painful decision that all of us have to accept.
I rush off to the pet shop to see rocky for the one last time. At first, i hesitate whether i wanted to go a not cause i knew i could not accept the fact that he will not be with us anymore. Although Rocky was really in pain and was bleeding but he appeared to look happy and active. Rocky look like he didn't want to enter the room and he wanted to leave that place and there was no guranteened that rocky will be well again after the operation. There might be complications and he might die at the operation table but rocky was old already. Although there might be a chance that after blood transfusion and surgery, rocky will leave but again the cost is really big problem.
I didn't want rocky to leave us and i really loved him but there was no other solution but to put him to sleep. I knew rocky didn't want to leave us as well but i'm glad that he left peacefully, he didn't struggled and left us.
Rocky, you will always be in my heart although you have left for another place. Perhaps, theres so more suffering for you anymore and there's always a place for you in my heart and you will always be part of memory. Its fate that we met you and you became our dog and hope you will find solace in another part of your world, without sufferings but only happiness! May you rest in peace and god bless you!
In memory of love, Rocky...
Dedicated to Rocky on 4th June 2009!
