Terrible feeling! I received a message from cousin that she will be putting rocky to sleep today and i took half day leave to witness the process of rocky being put to sleep. Rocky was an abandoned dog and we actually adopted him back home and this was when we started to develope our feelings. When we brought rocky back home and we clearly knew he was an old dog, he might not live long, he had a tumour in his front leg. Despite that, he seems to have fate with us and thus, after much consideration, we decided to keep rocky with us without knowing this background and history.
Rocky was a very obedient dog and nice campanion dog to have, without and temperant. He was a shetland sheep dog and look very intelligent and adorable. Not long ago, cousin discovered that rocky was bleeding and he was then taken to a vet and was diagnosed with testicle cancer. We could have save rocky but the cost was really a major concern to us and seeing rocky was suffering, cousin's decision was to put him to sleep. The decision came only after much considerations, it was a painful decision that all of us have to accept.
I rush off to the pet shop to see rocky for the one last time. At first, i hesitate whether i wanted to go a not cause i knew i could not accept the fact that he will not be with us anymore. Although Rocky was really in pain and was bleeding but he appeared to look happy and active. Rocky look like he didn't want to enter the room and he wanted to leave that place and there was no guranteened that rocky will be well again after the operation. There might be complications and he might die at the operation table but rocky was old already. Although there might be a chance that after blood transfusion and surgery, rocky will leave but again the cost is really big problem.
I didn't want rocky to leave us and i really loved him but there was no other solution but to put him to sleep. I knew rocky didn't want to leave us as well but i'm glad that he left peacefully, he didn't struggled and left us.
Rocky, you will always be in my heart although you have left for another place. Perhaps, theres so more suffering for you anymore and there's always a place for you in my heart and you will always be part of memory. Its fate that we met you and you became our dog and hope you will find solace in another part of your world, without sufferings but only happiness! May you rest in peace and god bless you!
In memory of love, Rocky...
Dedicated to Rocky on 4th June 2009!
Sometimes i really wonder, how ironical can life be? My 3 years of poly life in TP has officially ended with a graduation ceremony on wednesday. I can still remember vividly the time when i just entered poly life. So not used to it and there were times i felt like giving up and dropped out of e course. But i'm glad that i didn't and this is e result of my peserverance for the 3 years in TP. Well...i can say there's no regrets afterall and now it time to part with my fellow classmates. As much as i don't wish to and im left with no choice. It is now time to step out of my sheltered life and enter e workforce. Sometimes i really think im contradicting. When i was in secondary school, i wish i could go into poly real soon and when i was poly, i really wish i can graduate soon. And now that im officially a graduate, i dun feel like graduating at all, i wish i can enjoy more of poly life. And jus when i am enjoying it and everything ended so soon. Decision making is hard cos i dun really knew what i wanted, what kind of industry do i wish to go to? what kind of job do i like? Its really a big question mark to me cos i really dun have an answer to it. Im really aimless and clueless for now. But one thing for sure, im gonna miss my beloved classmates and lecturers, you guys will always be part of my memories and we gonna meet up real soon!
Woohoo... finally, i finished my last paper today. I did a lot of careless mistakes duh though e paper was not really hard. wasted wasted. hmm.. so now im like considered graduated though not an official one. i jus hope i do well in all 3 papers.
Seriously, im at lost of what to do next after graduating as in career? im totally clueless and dont know which direction to head to. I hope i can understand myself better and zoom in to the area of my interests. Right now, i jus wanna enjoy myself to e fullest and take a break. I dun wan to be bothered by anything else, nothing! lol.
